Thursday, June 23, 2011
#1 [A fresh beginning for me...]
It's has not been a smooth year for me
but here I am, standing strong.
So much things happening
& I can still recall everything vividly.
But like everyone says,
let bygones be bygones.
We couldn't erase the past
nor could we rewind back to the past.
Or should I say,
I doesn't want to rewind back the past?
I'm contented with the life I have now,
My work, families, friends & relationship.
Here I am,
posting to update some of my personal things
since I have not been updating for months.
But I promise I will post more often.
Work.
Almost all my friends & families know
I'm working in Adidas right now.
Time flies,
I've been working there for going 4 months.
& I'm already a confirm-ed staff there.
Afterall,
this is the most happiest job I've worked so far.
Colleagues are nice & crazy.
We could talk about anything & I doesn't have
to hide from them that I'm actually not into guys.
Though there might have been some stress
but so far so good.
This month sales have not been better than last month
though it's a eff-ing GSS?
I already given up my this month target.
It's so impossible to hit,
sales low & little crowd.
Families & friends.
So far, nothing to really update.
Just some things I've really learned this year.
I used to think that I've no one understand me or care for me.
But just months ago,
some thing happened.
Friends, families called & concern about me.
And my mother( who I thought she won't care)
post something on my facebook,
so meaningful that I moved to tears.
From then on,
I knew I actually have people that care about me.
Just on my 21st birthday,
received presents from families member.
I don't deny this year was the most happiest birthday ever.
I've necklace, cakes, beer, hello kitty
& not forgetting the cake that have my printed photos on it.
Thanks everyone.
Relationship.
A 1 year & 2 days relationship ended last 2 months.
I admit I didn't do a part as a very good gf in the first place
but afterall, I put in my all in it.
Too bad, we couldn't last & I don't blame anyone.
Used to, people asked me to be cruel a bit, just let go.
If she loves me, she would find me back, I just wait will do.
But for me, if I were to really give up,
there would really be no way back.
I would never say you never treasure me when I'm with you though it's the truth
but instead I would say, you just thought I would never leave you.
From my first mistake onwards,
you just thought that however you wanted to treat me,
it's me who deserve it.
So however you treated me,
I just have to tolerate it.
After 1 year of enduring,
I didn't even wanted to give up
though I've thought of.
Instead, you're the one saying
you wanted a break up.
At that point of time,
I already damn disappointed in you.
I gave up, I moved on,
no tears were dropped even till today...
Even after we broke up,
you still talk to me so unwillingly
until the day I told you I fall for someone else
& then you wanted me back.
Yes, it was me falling for someone else.
But that's not the reason that I don't want to be back with you.
I found someone so much better,
I wouldn't want to give up her for you.
No matter how much you told me you will change,
I just can't bring myself to believe you again.
Chances & chances have been given,
I'm tired, I just wanted to move on.
Anyway,
you can be with ANY girls,
don't you?
No matter what,
as long as it's a girl,
you can.
My current gf,
older than me by 7 years
but I don't feel any gap between us.
She always giving in to me endlessly,
making me smile everyday.
When I cry, she woulld hug me & wipe away my tears.
As time passes,
I realise how good she can be.
She never forgot what I'm craving for
& bought it for me the next day.
She always putting me in her priority.
No matter how bad her mood is
or how angry she is,
she always trying her best to coax me.
To me, she's always the most wonderful one.
I love her.
I never wanted to lose someone so wonderful.
Nicole Cheah♥
