Have been working lately & didn't have the time to blog. Reached home, I'm already far to tired to blog. Should be off on Friday but I changed to today. My eyes is too freaking swollen. Cried for the whole day yesterday.
Yesterday, Bf told me that his feeling for me have faded & he wish to go back to single life. Once I saw that, tears rolled down. I can't believe what I actually put in became nothing in his eyes. How come I do so many things, yet he doesn't feel touched at all. I took off the ring, changed the cake date to be collected. Anyway, I've ordered a cake for bf to give him surprise. In the end, he wanted a break. So I changed the collection date to yesterday. After work I rushed to take a cab to his house outside & put the cake on the floor. Sms-ed him to open the door & I go off. I cried heavily. My heart was in real pain, my whole body was shivering. He chase me to find where am I. He asked me whether I wanted to patch or not. But I tell him it's of no use since his feeling for me have faded. I won't be with someone whom feeling for me have faded. I told him, I'm working, didn't have the time to accompany him so his feeling faded. So what if in the future he went to army, he have more lesser time to accompany me, should my feeling faded too? He kept quiet. My sister tolded him off too. I told him, if I didn't work, how am I suppose to have money? are he going to feed me? then blah blah blah. After that, he told me his feeling came back. Because of what I've done for him, he felt touched. He told me none girls love him as much as I do. The stupidier side of me is when I'm in a relationship, I tend to put in my all. Don't wish to elaborate so long already. Everything have mended up.
Though everything have been mended up but I'm still afraid. I'm afraid things will go hay-wired again. How can I be able to trust, when he just let my heart go bleeding? I'm afraid I would kept a distance from him. I love him a lot a lot. But I scared I would hurt by him time & time again. Promises have been broken again & again. You told me you won't ever leave me before. You told me you would always be there for me. You told me you would die for me. You told me you would kiss my pain away. But all this promise, you broke it all in just a sms. I can't feel your love anymore.
*Why would you even wanto hurt me this way?* *Is it that whatever I done, you feel nothing?*
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Have been working lately & didn't have the time to blog. Reached home, I'm already far to tired to blog. Should be off on Friday but I changed to today. My eyes is too freaking swollen. Cried for the whole day yesterday.
Yesterday, Bf told me that his feeling for me have faded & he wish to go back to single life. Once I saw that, tears rolled down. I can't believe what I actually put in became nothing in his eyes. How come I do so many things, yet he doesn't feel touched at all. I took off the ring, changed the cake date to be collected. Anyway, I've ordered a cake for bf to give him surprise. In the end, he wanted a break. So I changed the collection date to yesterday. After work I rushed to take a cab to his house outside & put the cake on the floor. Sms-ed him to open the door & I go off. I cried heavily. My heart was in real pain, my whole body was shivering. He chase me to find where am I. He asked me whether I wanted to patch or not. But I tell him it's of no use since his feeling for me have faded. I won't be with someone whom feeling for me have faded. I told him, I'm working, didn't have the time to accompany him so his feeling faded. So what if in the future he went to army, he have more lesser time to accompany me, should my feeling faded too? He kept quiet. My sister tolded him off too. I told him, if I didn't work, how am I suppose to have money? are he going to feed me? then blah blah blah. After that, he told me his feeling came back. Because of what I've done for him, he felt touched. He told me none girls love him as much as I do. The stupidier side of me is when I'm in a relationship, I tend to put in my all. Don't wish to elaborate so long already. Everything have mended up.
Though everything have been mended up but I'm still afraid. I'm afraid things will go hay-wired again. How can I be able to trust, when he just let my heart go bleeding? I'm afraid I would kept a distance from him. I love him a lot a lot. But I scared I would hurt by him time & time again. Promises have been broken again & again. You told me you won't ever leave me before. You told me you would always be there for me. You told me you would die for me. You told me you would kiss my pain away. But all this promise, you broke it all in just a sms. I can't feel your love anymore.
*Why would you even wanto hurt me this way?* *Is it that whatever I done, you feel nothing?*
