Friday, July 1, 2011
[2 months & 5 days ]
I'm not blogging at home.
i downloaded a new application
which allow me to blog using my iPhone.
so that I could blog wherever & whenever I like it.
Am currently a Clarke Quay waiting
for my beloved gf finishing her work.
Sitting outside hearing club music
from the club beside gf's restaurant
always making me have the urge to club.
Ya, I know, save money ><
So I guess I just have to wait till I go KL
then gf will be bringing me to club.
Shall experience the club at Malaysia yea
since I didn't went before.
Everyday is like a routine for me.
Once finishes work then fetch gf from her work.
If someone were to ask me whether will I get sick or tired one day of these.
I would say HELL NO !
Seeing her smile to me everyday makes my whole tiring day worthwhile.
It seems so magical,
my tireness gone whenever I sees her.
New month, July.
I have to really "chiong" for my target.
last month didn't hit & last 2 months also didn't.
ah, I guess I really have to eat grass ><
Today, our store came a new part timer.
don't know have to call her weird or funny?
She's always talking to herself & her reaction was damn funny.
But, she's pretty !
Actually,
today intend to get a polo shirt for baby
but I forgot to get it !
Forget it, shall get it tomorrow
& maybe pass it to her after work.
I have to be a good girl now.
Shouldn't rely too much on baby.
She have to work so cannot really want to see her every night ):
Gf says that after she moves out,
I'll be able to sleep by her side every night ^^
alright, shall stop here now.
my precious is out ^^
and I'm going home now !!
and I'm going to hug her real tight !
Thursday, June 23, 2011
#1 [A fresh beginning for me...]
It's has not been a smooth year for me
but here I am, standing strong.
So much things happening
& I can still recall everything vividly.
But like everyone says,
let bygones be bygones.
We couldn't erase the past
nor could we rewind back to the past.
Or should I say,
I doesn't want to rewind back the past?
I'm contented with the life I have now,
My work, families, friends & relationship.
Here I am,
posting to update some of my personal things
since I have not been updating for months.
But I promise I will post more often.
Work.
Almost all my friends & families know
I'm working in Adidas right now.
Time flies,
I've been working there for going 4 months.
& I'm already a confirm-ed staff there.
Afterall,
this is the most happiest job I've worked so far.
Colleagues are nice & crazy.
We could talk about anything & I doesn't have
to hide from them that I'm actually not into guys.
Though there might have been some stress
but so far so good.
This month sales have not been better than last month
though it's a eff-ing GSS?
I already given up my this month target.
It's so impossible to hit,
sales low & little crowd.
Families & friends.
So far, nothing to really update.
Just some things I've really learned this year.
I used to think that I've no one understand me or care for me.
But just months ago,
some thing happened.
Friends, families called & concern about me.
And my mother( who I thought she won't care)
post something on my facebook,
so meaningful that I moved to tears.
From then on,
I knew I actually have people that care about me.
Just on my 21st birthday,
received presents from families member.
I don't deny this year was the most happiest birthday ever.
I've necklace, cakes, beer, hello kitty
& not forgetting the cake that have my printed photos on it.
Thanks everyone.
Relationship.
A 1 year & 2 days relationship ended last 2 months.
I admit I didn't do a part as a very good gf in the first place
but afterall, I put in my all in it.
Too bad, we couldn't last & I don't blame anyone.
Used to, people asked me to be cruel a bit, just let go.
If she loves me, she would find me back, I just wait will do.
But for me, if I were to really give up,
there would really be no way back.
I would never say you never treasure me when I'm with you though it's the truth
but instead I would say, you just thought I would never leave you.
From my first mistake onwards,
you just thought that however you wanted to treat me,
it's me who deserve it.
So however you treated me,
I just have to tolerate it.
After 1 year of enduring,
I didn't even wanted to give up
though I've thought of.
Instead, you're the one saying
you wanted a break up.
At that point of time,
I already damn disappointed in you.
I gave up, I moved on,
no tears were dropped even till today...
Even after we broke up,
you still talk to me so unwillingly
until the day I told you I fall for someone else
& then you wanted me back.
Yes, it was me falling for someone else.
But that's not the reason that I don't want to be back with you.
I found someone so much better,
I wouldn't want to give up her for you.
No matter how much you told me you will change,
I just can't bring myself to believe you again.
Chances & chances have been given,
I'm tired, I just wanted to move on.
Anyway,
you can be with ANY girls,
don't you?
No matter what,
as long as it's a girl,
you can.
My current gf,
older than me by 7 years
but I don't feel any gap between us.
She always giving in to me endlessly,
making me smile everyday.
When I cry, she woulld hug me & wipe away my tears.
As time passes,
I realise how good she can be.
She never forgot what I'm craving for
& bought it for me the next day.
She always putting me in her priority.
No matter how bad her mood is
or how angry she is,
she always trying her best to coax me.
To me, she's always the most wonderful one.
I love her.
I never wanted to lose someone so wonderful.
Nicole Cheah♥
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Will be starting work on Monday.
Sandy offer me to go back San Street to work
& I agreed immediately.
Thanks Sandy for the job :)
I'll work hard to not letting you down.
Gf is coughing badly, she's sick.
Hearing her cough, my heart ache.
I'll buy Woods for her & force it down her throat.
Hoping she'll heal fast yea.
Tomorrow will be meeting Gf.
Shopping shopping day ~
Intend to buy a shirt for her :))
Gf is playing her mahjong now.
Hoping she'll win more more eh :)
LOVES !
Friday, April 23, 2010
Met up with Jasper today.
Went to Bugis to have MOF.
Nice nice eh.
After that she send me to work.
That place like ulu ulu eh =.=
Coincidentally,
Jasper went with her friends to KTV pub
was next to my workplace.
Whenever I'm free to smoke,
she will accompany me.
Around 4.15am,
Jasper went home to sleep.
I know she's tired
as she need to wake up early in the morning to work.
Somemore,
she's sick eh.
6am,
I've finishes my work
& I've to walk a uber long way
so that I could catch a cab.
But in the end,
I on call-ed cab,
so no difference luh.
If I continue to wait for one,
I don't know what time can i really reach home.
First day of work=last day of work.
For don't know what fucking reason,
I'm short of $150.
I don't like the place that,
totally don't suit me at all.
I'm not out for nightlife work?
Yes, confirm it is !
Kind of embarrassed to work as flower girl too.
But nevermind luh.
Over is over.
Will SMS Jen to tell her that I'm not working anymore.
Day life job suit me more :)
Somehow,
I hope we won't be apart anymore.
Somehow,
I hope you're mine always.
Somehow,
I don't wish to lose you anymore.
Each time I saw you,
I just want to pull you close to me.
To let everyone know that you're mine.
Maybe I'm selfish,
yes, I'm only selfish to others
for the one that I love.
Thanks god for letting me met you.
Thanks god for letting me falling for you.
No matter ups or down,
I'm here with you, always.
I'm a toxic to you
& you're my drug.
Lastly,
Somehow I hope we'll be together again.
I love you.
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Back from Play.
Drink drank drunk
but I'm not drunk.
laughs.
Went to play with Abby & her friends.
A seriously worst clubbing I ever had.
She totally turned me off.
FUCK UP !
Tomorrow will be starting my nightlife job.
Will I get used to it?
IDK~
But hope everything goes well for me.
Nothing much to blog already.
Night peeps
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Things have just started
& it's ending soon.
I'm sorry,
I'm not a good gf.
I did my very best to please you up
but nothing helps.
I didn't know how to express myself.
But never ever compared
about my past & now.
What past have past understand?
I hate people to compare how
I treated my ex & now how I treated you.
If I didn't mind how you treated your ex
in the past,
then why should you mind mine at all?
When I tried to please you up,
all you did was pushing me away
& say I did all these out of guiltiness.
When you say it would be better if
you didn't knew me at all,
if we didn't met & together.
Hey,
do you fucking know it hurts?
When I heard it,
I'm totally given up on you.
All you think is I don't understand you
but did you ever tried to understand me at all?
Since you want things to turn out this way
then fine.
I'm not only disappointed in you
but I'm totally given up.
FUCK IT !
You says that your friends
don't think well for our relationship
cos' I'm still young & childish?
Young doesn't mean that
I don't go through much.
I gone through much more than you ever gone through.
If I'm childish
so do you think you're mature enough?
WHATEVER !
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Last Wednesday went to Arena
until 5 plus reach home.
Thursday went to Orchard cafe bar
until 6 plus.
Friday went to Bugis for steamboat
until 5 plus.
Today will be going to Thai pub,
don't know until what time.
Can you imagine how drained & tired I am?
Sigh !
I'm in a dilemma.
